Dear Diary... chapter 1

Dear diary,
   
                  days and months have passed with this love/hate fury in my heart, not letting me clearly think. My life has changed so much within the space of a year. New bestfriends, new attitude and a new me. 
My views on life even changed! Im no longer that little girl that was so close minded and was even scared to talk to people of the opposite gender. ( dont worry diary i didnt change to the extent that i throw my self at any guy available) i still have morals and after what has happened to me i know that everything happens for a reason. 
i'm no where near the person i used to be, and this all happened last October when someone, a very unexpected someone entered my life and i may have given him the power to change me. Whether it was for the good or the bad i didnt know, all i know is that everything around me kept changing and changing, some to the good and others to the bad but change is good, right?

If only you knew how i felt. My entire life just flipped, but i guess in some way it was worth it in the end. i mean i did meet unforgettable people, and felt things i should have never felt and said things i should have never even uttered but everyone makes mistakes. im only human, right?

Diary, even telling you this i can feel those memories recollecting in my brain and starting my over thinking to take place. Diary, it took me 4 long and dreadful months to be able to gain myself back, to think straight but every time i think everything's gonna be okay, something wrong happens. My feelings change, my emotions take over and rage ends up being built in my heart, causing layers of thickness to build keeping everyone out because at some point even your closest friends turn on you. Especially me, its happened more than once, but still it breaks me every time. 

Don't worry diary, i'll tell you the whole story from start to end, or at least i think its how it ends.
Just remember diary, everything happens for a reason and nothing lasts forever, or does it?